By Synthia Esther
I believe it is God's plan for my life to offer any knowledge I have gained through diligent study and personal experience, in order to widen the worlds perception and awareness of oppressive harm against humanity and the animal kingdom. Christian apologetics brings truth to light, empowering people of all faiths, defending Biblical truth against anything that opposes it.
We are all called by God to show ourselves approved (2nd Tim. 2:15).
The purpose of this ministry is to point the way towards God's saving grace, healing truth, peace, serenity, personal transformation,grace, mercy and love. I believe we can change the world one person at a time. Jesus Christ loved us enough to go all the way to Calvary with humanities sin redemption plan, the least I can do is write and tell you about it. Why? Truth must prevail and I cannot deny the facts, stand still and pontificate what the outcome will be on our future generations safety and spiritual condition.
Children across the world are already paying for our mistakes. My spirit reverberates with the scriptural reference in Ecclesiastes 7:25, “So I turned my mind to understand, to investigate and to search out wisdom and the scheme of things and to understand the stupidity of wickedness and the madness of folly.” I know humanities soul is harmed by the spiraling, destructive, cause and effect of sins progressive deterioration.
There are many people of faith within the world who are prompted within their spirit to expound Biblical knowledge and spiritual awareness of the healing power of God's love. They too wish to somehow, in some small way make a difference in the world in which we live. Likewise, I pray my warning is heard and hearts and lives are changed toward Jesus Christ, and His eternal and spiritual free gift of salvation (reference article, “A Free Gift”). Romans 6:23, “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord”. As it is written in Proverbs 16:3, “Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.”
The main objective of this ministry is to impact the world by winning souls for Christ and pointing the way towards eternal significance and personal Holy Spirit transformation. In a dream, God gave me Proverbs chapter two as the foundational purpose of my mission and ministry. It is a spiritual journey in life I refer to as “Sacred Pursuit”. We have dedicated an entire sister website, www.sacredpursuit.org, that gives testimony of God's amazing grace, mercy, and love.
2nd Corinthians 5-20, “We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making His appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God." Hebrews 6:10, “God is not unjust; He will not forget your work and the love you have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them.” Proverbs 11:30, “The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, and he who wins souls is wise.”
I rather not have relived the egregious memories each time I tried to convey in written words my past relationship with Ryan (reference story; “Foolish Pleasure”-The Love Story Of A Sex Addict, His Betrayal And Crime”). Dishonesty, deception and the exploitation of others permeated Ryan's life choices. I would rather have forgotten the tears of sorrow I saw in the eyes of the many women I met, who in support groups tried to make sense of the sexual addiction and sin that destroyed their marriages, families and relationships.
Sexual Human Trafficking also plagues my soul and spirit. The facts confirm this is a Global major crime problem.
In America, the NFL Super Bowl hides a dark side in relationship to sexual trafficking. This high grossing event also produces a high spike in sexual trafficking. Football and sex - "Boys will be boys" attitudes, help further these crimes. Real Men should be Men, and step up to the platform of change, in order to protect the innocent victims of these crimes.
I do not like recalling their stories of remorse and compromise at times allowing their own young children, male and female alike, to become victims of sexual predators within their own homes. Some neighbors, boyfriends or blood relatives, however many were fathers, step fathers, or grandparents who partook of sinful, deviant and perverse pleasure sexually using and abusing their own children, grand-children or step children. Then there are the animals suffering and dying due to being used in sexual acts of bestiality (reference article, “Bestiality And Zoophilia”) - www.synthiaestherministries.com.
With out intervention these abused and wounded children often times grow up victimizing others as the perpetual cycle of sexual abuse continues. Lost, lonely, abused, addicted, abandoned and bitter, many become part of our future generation of prostitutes, pimps and porn stars. Ephesians 4-18-19, “They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. (19) Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.”
I find it ironic that some of the same psychological processes that cause a person to promote and produce pornography and/or commit sexual crimes, is identical to the sex addictive person who is compulsively attracted to purchasing it. Both view humanity through the eyes of sexual objectification.
Such is the perpetual cycle of sin's destruction. It grieves my spirit to recall Ryan's personal words of agony as he attempted to rid himself of his sexual obsessions in an 12-step prescribed 90 day sexual fast, "If you had what was going on in my mind and body, you would kill yourself! I am fighting giants like Goliath daily!" I saw tears in his eyes on many occasions only to be suddenly replaced with venomous words of vindictive anger. Tears I once thought were signs of remorse I now know were tears of personal pain and sorrow for the tragedy of recalled childhood memories, abuse and the mourning of personal losses. Addiction is but a mask hiding deeper emotional repressed sorrow, pain and fear.
My heart grieves for the lost souls who are in the addictive cycle of shame and blame. Ryan's narcissistic-addiction induced alter personality could not comprehend the enormous harm his actions inflicted upon others nor the dissonance it created. I am not only talking of myself and dealing with his deceptive double life but pornography and its crime add to the increase of pedophilia, bestiality, sexual human trafficking, prostitution, sexually transmitted disease, unwanted pregnancies and abortion, rape, abduction, murder, and the list of crime goes on and on.
Other addictions such as drugs, alcohol, Robo, Triple C and Rx tripping, cutting and self-mutilation, food and eating disorders, gambling, gaming, work, power, control technology snares.... and the list of addiction's goes on and on... harms humanities overall health, integrity and spiritual growth.
Addiction also destroys the people who indulge in the false belief that their obsessive compulsive behavior keeps them going. Like the ever ready bunny your batteries will run out some time and your demise may not be by natural causes.
I equate Ryan's condition and those like him to the term, "emotional vampires". They drain those around them yet continue to "suck up" all their hurt, anger and bitterness. Remaining in isolation, misery and fear they prefer to self medicate rather then face their pain. It is God's love and Holy Spirit power that can change a life of sorrow, pain and remorse into forgiveness, happiness, hope, joy, peace and love. Ephesians 3:16-29, “I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, (17) so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, (18) may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, (19) and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (20) Now to Him who is able to do more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.“
I am also reminded of the horrific memory of seeing my only brother lay in a hospital bed dying after being steamed alive in an industrial accident. His death was caused by the greed of another persons addictive need for power, control, achievement and personal gain, and a company that failed to follow safety regulations. The pain in the eyes of my parents faces when loosing their only son is forever traced in my memory (reference story: “Died on the Fourth of July”) - www.synthiaestherministries.com. My deceased brother left a widow and four young children behind. When I read in my research that loosing a parent triggers some young children vulnerable to the addiction process, I thought of my brothers children.
I recall the early death of my first cousin who destroyed his body with addiction to alcohol. He never knew his father, who died a tragic death much like that of my brother while in military service. He also never received the love and acceptance he needed from his step-father. When my brother died he called me and told me of his personal grief and need deprivation of growing up without his father.
TARGETED INDIVIDUALS - TECHNOLOGY PSYOPS CRIME: "TECHCHRONICITY CONTROL OF ELECTRONIC EARTH" - WWW.SYNTHIAESTHERMINISTRIES.ORG.
Mind Warfare - psychological crimes now effect humanity and all life on earth. By way of technologies beyond the pale,(V2K - voice of god technology, direct energy weapons, Ai - cloud computing coupling, to name a few), we face yet another stronghold placed upon the world at large. Yet, much like human sexual trafficking, these crimes have remained in the underground criminal network, unknown to most, including many innocent "targeted individuals" (TI's), who are victims.
PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARDS MEN - HAS BECOME A LOST CONCEPT TO A LOST WORLD IN NEED
Our behavior not only effects others it literally effects the world in which we live. We as humans are all interconnected no matter race, color or creed. Our skin color describes us, it does not define us. Change begins with each and everyone of us. As we expose the crime, and expose the perpatrators, we help to restore God's peace on earth!
What we do or don't do in our lifetime matters and what we do with our life spiritually is who we truly are. We each decide to shine God's light or impart Satan's darkness upon the world by our own thoughts, deeds and actions. Like a finger print in time we each hold a part of the world's spiritual health. So it is with that gained knowledge that I once again toss my pebble across the sea of humanity knowing the ripple will extend beyond my life time. What do I hope it will impart? The message written to all God's children in Micah 6:8, “What does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”
May my actions prove that as time goes by, the decisions I have made with compassion, grace and mercy provide a glimpse to the world of Christ's love. It is an inner witness that God enables many to leave the ones they love knowing with positive assurance that Christ himself will continue to call them home to his bosom where all love originates.
This web site is dedicated to all lost souls who are spiritually searching throughout when the answers to peace, joy and contentment lie within the pages of God's word, the Holy Bible. You can read more about "Synthia Esther Ministries" outreach by visiting one of our many websites.
Synthia Esther Ministry websites include, but are not limited to:
www.synthiaestherministries.com, www.sexhisway.com, www.xxxhisway.com, www.synthiasex.com, www.powersexxxx.com, www.concernedsingleamericans.com, and our popular testimony and witness website, www.sacredpursuit.com - all about God's mercy, grace, and love, www.sacredpursuit.org - all about the occult, New Age, 11:11, and other metaphysical - esoteric deceptions, www.synthiaesther.net - Prayer outreach website.
* Please note:
Due to vast hacking problems, and crime infractions on social media, we no longer make use of these types of ministry platforms and outreach.
By Synthia Esther
IN YOUR OPINION, “HOW MANY CATHARTIC EVENTS DOES IT TAKE IN A PERSON'S LIFE BEFORE THEY DESIRE A DRASTIC CHANGE OF FOCUS AND SPIRITUAL INTENTION?”
I personally believe the answer to that question God only knows. But I do know this, “The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down” (Psalm 145:14). I have now had four emotionally charged, profound events in my life that produced drastic cathartic change. The first cathartic event in my life God hasn't given me a spiritual release to discuss. However, many have tried to guess in the past, assuming I came out of the sex industry. Which is not the case. This first event pertained to a personal family matter, that has long since been resolved.
The second event in my life that produced a drastic change within my spirit, was my brothers tragic death (reference story,” Died On The Fourth Of July”). My brother's death taught me life is too short to live in abuse, emotional rape, misery, sorrow and regret, and to always be true to your souls spiritual growth by not sacrificing your inner peace for security. God does not condone abuse!
Shortly after my brother died I proceeded with a divorce from an emotionally and physically abusive ex-husband who used deception, manipulation, power and control to his vindictive advantage. Divorce proved to incur a different set of problems as I faced “Parental Alienation” and financial difficulties. Despite on-going difficulties, ridding myself of the once nurtured “victim mentality” has proved to be the greatest self-discovery of personal strength and happiness I have ever made.
At the end of our journey on earth we alone are held responsible for our actions and choices in life. My affirmative action also speaks volumes to all those whom my life comes in contact with, declaring willful abuse is not to be tolerated under any circumstances and it is not God's will or your cross to carry for one individual to harm another.
My brother's tragic death produced a profound “awakening” within my life. It also prompted within my soul and spirit the firm belief that life truly is a gift from God. What we do with that gift is returned to God the generous and gracious giver, in loving thanks for His mercy, grace and love. God in His faithful sovereignty can change your life from remaining a “victim” to becoming a “victor”!
THIRD EVENT - PAST RELATIONSHIP WITH AN ON THE DOWN LOW SEX ADDICT
Ryan was a war hero, professed Christian by day, and a sex addict by night. His on the down low double life lead me straight into the ministry field, called by God. As a result I have counseled and helped many former sex industry workers get out of the business.
Ryan taught me that a child's soul is influenced for life, for better or worst, by the parents who raised him. Family dysfunction remains intact until someone has the courage and spiritual strength to change it. In Ryan's case, his emotional pain and sorrow was caused by his parents lack of acknowledged and demonstrated love, affirmation and positive attention. Ryan suffers from childhood attachment bonds only God can heal. In turn, he continues to allow his past to dictate his future. His smile is the mask that hides his hate, resentment, bitterness, and anger.
Due to experiencing Ryan's emotional struggle with sexual addiction, and his psychological fear of abandonment and intimacy, I realized that “we are the sum total of our circumstances and experiences in life (motives), unless we realize the spiritual significance behind the sum total of our life circumstances and experiences (growth)”. These were my sentiments when writing the God inspired short story, “My Sacred Journey Home” as well as the article “The Secret Law Of Attraction – A False Reality Of A Conceptual Manner” at: (www.synthiaestherministries.com).
As Christians we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
TARGETED INDIVIDUAL - MY FOURTH CATASTROPHIC - LIFE CHANGING EVENT
Most recently, (2009), I found myself living in a strange technological nightmare of sorts. Which upon investigative research and years of discovery, I came to realize I was a "Targeted Individual" (TI). When first attacked by these weapons beyond the pale, I believed them to be spiritual in nature, (Satanic attacks) much like demonic oppression. Which they are most definitely not! I am presently writing a book about these tech crimes and my (but by the grace of God), ultimate endurance and survival. I have interviewed other TI victims, who have also experienced, and described these surveillance - technological weapons beyond the pale. My TI experiences (once again, called by God), lead me to develop the very website you are now reading - www.synthiaestherministries.org. - "Techchronicity". Techchronicity is a word I coined in 2018, to best describe the synchronization of these crimes.
Occultist Carl Jung defined synchronicity (having to do with the spiritual realm), and various acausal experiences. Jung was in contact with the demonic, fallen angel realm. Techchronicity, is the synchronization of time and events, produced by man made, and caused, technical means. Present day technology and science is far more advanced than most people can image, or dream to know.
DON'T ALLOW YOUR PAST TO DICTATE YOUR FUTURE!
WE HAVE TWO CHOICES IN LIFE: “TO DEAL” OR “TO DWELL”
We can allow our past to control and dictate our future or we can learn from our past and allow it to refine us. Our personal choices in life determine our trials and our triumphs. Those who have gone through the trial triumphantly, are often better able to empathize with those who are in the midst of a trial. It is my prayer that humanity will see the harm of their self-imposed actions when contributing to the negativity and evil within the world. Abortion is murder, and if you don't think it is a baby than your not pregnant! Addiction, abuse and crime go together.
CO-DEPENDENCY, A NEGATIVE COPING SKILL
Addiction and tolerance of abuse and dysfunction depletes the soul and spirit of a person, depriving them of spiritual growth and maturity. If you are a co-dependency addict, allowing such negative coping skills within your life and using them yourself, feeds those around you (including your children), with positive affirmation that they work. Thus, you are not only hurting yourself, you are depriving the people you love and care for the opportunity to grow past self-limiting coping skills and achievement of their spiritual destiny! One cannot separate the action from the cause, and no one except God can complete you.
As a result of having been involved with Ryan, I am now a sexual ethicist, not against sex at all, in fact I love sex the way God created it to be. Sexual relations outside of the love and ordinances of God is harmful to ones sense of wholeness, spiritual growth, development, divine intimacy, and loving expression. Sexual intimacy the way God intended it to be is Holy, God inspired (he created sex), and ordained. The closer I have gotten to God and His word of truth, the Bible, the more empowered, intuitive and spiritually creative I have become in all areas of my life, including my writing.
Ephesians 4:32, “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love (1st John 4:8). Forgiveness allows you to move forward in life with the firm resolve of not committing the same harm against another. Forgiveness is a positive spiritual solution to a negative situation. In order for history to not repeat itself you have to change the course of history. Forgiveness does not mean the person that harmed you has to be a part of your life, on the contrary, it releases the negative control they may still maintain on your life!
Colossians 3:12-15, “Therefore, as God's chosen people, Holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. (13) Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. (14) And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (15) Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”
When I was searching for answers on the Internet pertaining to “pornography and sex addiction”, and the physical and psychological manifestations I witnessed Ryan going through, I found every single Internet source was a gimmick for financial advancement. There were professional counselors offering seminars, retreats, and services for hire. Books to buy, guide and work books to follow, classes to attend, CD's and DVD's to purchase, including those that included subliminal affirmations. I found new age/hypnosis transformation tools with development keys to unlocking the conscious, unconscious, or sub-conscious mind.
While some of these tools may be extremely beneficial, (most especially professional therapy), not everyone can afford them. It is my personal opinion, with out God's spiritual intervention and strength no addiction resource will work in the long term (Philippians 4:13). Immediate “free” resources via the Internet, with first hand examples, stories and personal references, were often brief testimonies at best, with personal resolves limited in text, support and guidance, unless you purchased their product's. God 's Holy Spirit prompted me to write and provide for “free”, what I couldn't find readily available on the Internet. If anything I have said, written, or conveyed has been beneficial, thank-God for the source and inspiration, for it is the root that supports the tree, not the tree supporting the root (Romans 11:18).
There are many free 12 step programs marketed and available for pornography and sex addicts, however, I found the 12 step programs (which are usually aimed towards helping addicts and their families with chemical addiction's), inadequate in relation to sex addiction. In the many personal interviews I have conducted and letter's I have received, many sex addicts claim they usually like to go to pornography and sex addition self help support programs because they get a sexual high (both physically and psychologically), when they are able to talk about sex!
In fact, sex addicts talking about their sexual experiences can trigger other sex addicts to act out even more. An alcoholic can leave their vodka or beer at home, a sex addict carries their addiction “release source” with them, as it is part of their physical body. There are also very few sexual addicts that have remained faithful in their resolve to cease their acting out. Their addiction to fantasy and masturbation continues to anchor and fuel the flames of their sexual obsessions. With world wide access to pornography on the Internet, sex addictive patterns of rape and crime continue to escalate.
"TECHCHRONICITY - WWW.SYNTHIAESTHERMINISTRIES.ORG
Once I became aware of the global electronic crime grid network, as a Targeted Individual, I was called by God to reach out in ministry in this much needed arena as well. The truth about these "silent weapons for quiet wars" , will one day be revealed. Until then, personal testimony by the thousands of TI's who have now come forward, will help gain the awareness needed to expose these crimes and criminals. As well as provide the much needed educational resources and support other victims will benefit from. Our Worlds spiritual, God inspired awakening is near, as we reach out to inform the world about these evil, mind controlling technologies and criminal crimes.
Most all of these Internet products, and/or person's offering such help and advice were out to make money, lots and lots of money. At one of my lowest point's of grief someone was there offering a hand, a way out, or they were promising to rid my “ex” of his troubling sexual addiction's, all for a fee. I have spent well over two thousand dollars on sex and psychology related research books in search of answers. The most informative books in my personal opinion, are referenced in my stories and/or articles.
I also met many, many, women and men, who simply didn't have the time to read “all” the current research, nor could they afford expensive retreats and seminars promising to rid them or their spouse of their sexual obsessive-compulsive or co-dependency addiction's. An addicts addiction rituals and manifestations may subside for a while, just like an illness can go into remission. But no one except Jesus Christ can help you “keep the addiction that binds you” dormant. He alone is your deliverer, your strength, shield, and your fortress (Psalm 144:2)..
“IT HAS ALL BEEN DONE BY FAITH”
The Holy Spirit is often referred to in the Bible as the counselor and/or helper (John 14:16-17), and it is in that spirit of giving that this free help has been provided. You will not see adds or marketing on any "Synthia Esther" ministry websites. In short, it has all been done by faith. Faith in people, faith in service, and most importantly, faith in God!
It is my prayer that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know Him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe (Ephesians 1: 17-19).
By Synthia Esther
December 4, 2004 my parents celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary renewing their vows in the church they founded in 1988. Watching the service that afternoon, I felt a deep sense of gratitude for the example of Christs love and faithful sovereignty that their lives together exemplified. I found myself reminiscing of their past. My father, his sister and brother never knew the kind of love they so freely give. They were very young children when their parents divorced and gave them-up to be raised by their elderly grand-parents on a rural farm in Alabama during the depression. Work was hard and school at times a luxury. Seldom were they shown outward affection or told the words, "I love you", yet they grew up thankful and not bitter that they were raised by family and taught by example the principals of honesty and hard work.
Mother grew up in New York with a twin sister, as well as nine other siblings. Life was filled with love, nurtured and taught by parents who demonstrated a steadfast belief in God despite sometimes painful circumstances. The death of two of their children and the effects of Scarlett fever leaving one of their daughters disabled never wavered their faith. They boldly proclaimed the gospel of Jesus Christ as missionaries, pioneering many Churches.
When the young man from Alabama met the beautiful young lady from New York, love grew, sparks flew, they married and became the proud parents of my brother and I. "But as for me and my house we will serve the lord," sums up best how our family lived. I married, had two sons and moved to Atlanta,Georgia. My life was filled with activity to avoid the realities of an abusive, deceptive and addictive prone alcoholic husband. I was angry and bitter about my circumstances. My brother was happily married to a wife he loved and cherished. They had three sons and at last a long awaited daughter.
July 3rd,1994 our lives changed suddenly and drastically. I remember as if it were only yesterday. My aunt telephoned me as I was preparing dinner. She spoke slowly, her words few..."Gene has been in an accident at work, he's badly burned...they are flying him by emergency helicopter to Birmingham's Trauma Center Hospital. They do not expect him to live." We drove immediately to Birmingham. Arriving at the hospital I walked in a trance like state to the room where my brother lay. Long off white divider room curtains were left partially opened. I approached his bed scarcely recognizing his swollen, grossly distorted face and body. He suffered internal steam burns in over 85 percent of his body. He literally had been cooked alive. His wife sat in shock, motionless by his bedside while doctors watched her vital signs. Monitors hooked up to my brother's body beeped in steady rhythm as if on cue, his strong young heart still beating. I bowed my head in disbelief, starring lifelessly as I watched his blood drip from white towels stuffed between his bed mattress and metal guard rails, onto the tile floor forming small puddles of blood.
My parents arrived with more wails of crying like a wave of grief. I held my mother who had collapsed into my arms like a baby clinging to his mother. I heard my father whispering prayers to God over his unconscious dying son. Grief permeated the room like nothing I have ever experienced in my entire life. The atmospheric pressure so heavy it felt like added weight upon your body. I knew I was watching death and its process. Brother died July 4th,1994, in what many would say was the prime of his life. That night I saw and heard fireworks in the distant sky and felt Satan was celebrating.
Distraught and in sorrow I cried," Why God? Why? I am the one with the bad marriage. I am the one who has felt like dying my life is so messed up! It doesn't seem fair. Why didn't you take me instead? I just do not understand. Sometime latter, I remembered my mother saying in tears, "As hard as it is to lose my son I am glad it was him and not you. He is at peace and ready to meet God, I do not know if you would have been." My family speak their mind and tell it like it is, but her honest words pierced my heart for I knew she was right.
It rained the day of the funeral. The rain felt like tears from heaven and seemed to match the tears that ran down our faces. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world yet forfeit his soul, is etched in stone on brother's grave side plac. Even unto death his spiritual witness speaks.
Brother worked for one of the largest companies in the world. It is ironic his death was caused by a new company supervisor, who trying to impress management made a call against safety precautions in an effort to show more profit under his leadership. An investigation by Osha ensued with the company being fined for close to 20 safety precautions of negligence. Like a lot of situations in life, power and greed were at the core of company leadership and responsibility, instead of law, safety and the sanctity of human life.
My parents never questioned God's sovereignty, grace or mercy. They thanked God for their son and the years they were blessed by his life and his presence.
Ecclesiastes 7:1, "A good name is better than fine perfume, and the day of death better than the day of birth."
They also freely forgave the wrongs that caused their son's death. My parents attitude and witness epitomized Psalm 46, "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble". Instead of asking God why, they asked only when? Like the hymn we sang together as a family sitting on hard wooden pews in the church we attended..."When we all get to heaven, what a day of rejoicing it will be, when we all see Jesus we'll sing and shout the victory"! * Their faith in Christ spoke of victory in Jesus, the sacrificial lamb who shed his blood on the cross of Calvary defeating sin and death by his resurrection on the third day.
We as Christians have eternal life as his promise and the reassurance we will see our spiritually saved loved ones who have passed once again. We live in a fallen world. Our lives on earth are not free from trials and tribulation. The Tsunami tragedy in Southeast Asia, the Katrina hurricane in Louisiana, victims of the present war in Iraq, a collapsed bridge in Minneapolis, Mn (Aug. 2007), miners (Oct. 2003), in Shakhty, Russia who were flooded by water in Russia's Rostov Region, coal miners trapped in Utah, United States (Aug. 2007), 9/11 - World Trade Center disaster, are just a few of the many tragedy's claiming innocent lives.
Some may ask, "Where were you God when I needed you? Where were you when my child lay dying?" I feel his reply would be, at the same place I was when my son was dying. God has always had His hearts eye on earth and its occupants for we are his children. He never leaves us or forsakes us and in loving patience waits for our acceptance. Then he continues to nurture us in the finishing school of life, which last from the birth cradle to the grave drawing us ever closer. Our spiritual faith in painful circumstances brings us the growth and maturity necessary to develop a walk towards Christ's fullness of spirit.
Through my life's journey, armed with the power of the Holy Spirit and the anointed word of God, I too have learned from my trials and tribulations. Now happily divorced, I have come to realize a simple faith like that of my parents, "God is my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." He makes my crooked paths straight and ordains my victory (Proverbs 3:5-6). Victory over worry, pain, suffering, strife, hardship, disabilities, ailing heath, depression, poverty, debt, abuse, torture, addictions, and yes... even over death. With a heart of thanksgiving and praise, I celebrate my victories. I know my God is coming soon, reigning as King of kings and Lord of lords. With confident assurance, I too now ask.... "When God? When?"